Sunday, December 12, 2004
Its been a few weeks.
Last time I posted here, everything was different. Well I guess my blog's appearance symbolizes the Family.
Over the course of the past weeks ,our Family has been endangered by many merciless circumstances. I almost lost Corrie again, and Kuya too. I did something I didnt think i'd have to in this relationship; I talked.
For those of you who know me well know that i'm not a talker, im a distractor. Thats because I save my talking energy for when I really need to. That day was one of those times. It drained me, ever so much, and I felt like I couldnt talk for days. I didnt want to. now that everything was ok again, i was hoping that the other family memebers would handle the talking. I was wrong. Not long after the threat of Kuyas disappearance was lifted, there came another problem. Corrie couldn't restrain herself properly. She was overly horny, and to keep it all in and stop jherself from fucking inanimate objects, she slashed and smoked her way to insanity. Now if you've read her blog, you would know when all this was happening, and it didnt feel like this kind of shit should happen, especially not during these months. Christmas is supposed to be a time when there is no end of happiness, no loss of joy. Yes, everything is cleared up now, but how long will it be before we find ourselves in this kind of situation? I feel like this always, and I mean ALWAYS, happens to us. I know; its unfair, it not right, bla bla bla.. Im not like that, I mean I dont rant about whats unfair and all, but it really is.. I cant help but think that when this year ends, and of course it is ending soon, we'll be in this shit again. I will try my best to keep my chin up and hope for a good year, but right now I just dont have that strength in me. I guess i'll just sulk and smoke and play my way through everything, like I always have.
*sigh*
Here we go again...
5:05 PM
